Burn out the sun, oh wait... Let's burn it anyway

Finally! I got all the All Time Low albums, high five for me hehee. They're great and love their lyrics, not all tho cos few songs I don't really understand whats it's all about. Even randomly downloaded few songs I never heard before. I like this song 'come on come on' by Morgan Laurence.

"Dude, what happen to your hair?"
"Hahaa kan panjang hair mu lagi ka yo? Panjang kan eh cam dulu, raget"
"Oh shit Zee, really? I like you better with curly hair, but last time also hensem long hair"

Why few of my friends told me these? Yeah I got my hair rebonding again, just need to make it look smart and easy to control that's all PLUS I love my old hair do. Med-long and look like the guy from Boys like Girls. Pfftt yeah~ Oh yeah, before that I did take a picture of me with afro hair HAHAHAA.

I wanna run and hide somewhere til I feel safe to show myself outside again. I really miss her and every moment we had, yeah we're good friend and I like her being with me going out until we barely notice its after midnight. Now that she's busy.. I'm not sure what she up to but please why she just can't reply all my messages =(

Yeah I'm sad, helpless and hopeless SIGH' I got nothing to prove and she'll leave Brunei just in the next few days. Confession: I thought I'm unable to cry no more, after listening to one of her song she asked me to download and listen... Daym I cried like a little girl and looked like a lil bitch, was in miserable moment all night. I miss her so badly =( Blue and yellow, get it? yeah im sad.

Recent news I heard from a friend, I'M NOT A SWEET STALKER ALRIGHT! I DIDN'T EVEN TREAT ALL GIRL THE SAME AS IF THEY'RE MY GIRLFRIEND. Please be open minded, I'm friendly baa, don't be an asshole mouth saying I'm a sweet talker and I'm hitting on every girl I met. I don't like it and never think of becoming one. Shisshh! All those words I told to the girls I like came from this big sincere heart, I'm innocent.

Empty smile.

Hey I'm back on blogging wuhuuu for that, i think... not sure how long I can find free time for myself and talk bout this screwed life *pout*. Yeah yeah some people thinks that "Uuuww he's good, living his life just like any cool kids did" and "Nazeee, daym you're lucky maaan. Fuun!" and "Gaaah WTF Nazeee, you're gay and idiot. You should live up your life and be out there".

Well these are just few of those simple reaction I got from gay friends (not homo haha!), best friend and strangers (don't ask me, friends of a friend?). Well all I can say to myself hmm lets see...
what's with this stupid insect... eh wait LOL almost forgot pfftt =D

What you got to know bout me (if you bother and read this anyway) since the day I realised that I'm living a fucked up life driven by this rusty mind and a broken heart.

1) I was once a broken man, not knowing much bout depression and frustration (blue and yellow, get it?). I learned love does exist thru my own worst experience. How I react? End up crying like a little girl lost her doll. Yep sigh' for almost 3 months I kept on crying. what..? Naze cried? That's stupppiiiid. Well YEAH I CRIED! WTH should I know, was young and knew nothing at all bout love and girl friend that much. The only idea I'd was blaming myself to death HAHAHA CHEESE RICE!~ So yeah, I learned and study more bout that special feeling, explore and asking myself and even ask friends about it (sounds crazy). To be love is the best feeling I ever had, to be missed and care are the butterfly effect that lift you up into the sun and feel warm inside. To be left alone is the worse dream I ever had, it's like grrrr urhh grrr let me crush everything that's in my way grrrr, yeah like that. I hate that, seriously. Why? When I gave and shared part of me with someone I love, why did she has to leave and sliced open this innocent heart. I can be trusted, a loving person, care for her as if she's the world and sweet honeycomb to me and *mute*. It'll take whole day to explain.

2) Bad history? Check that please. I don't wanna tell bout this one, I mean... trying to forget bout everything I did. It's bad, trust me. How bad? REAAAAAL BAD! Boner.

3) I like to listen great music. How to elaborate this... music+lyrics = me! Oh example? "How long can you expect me waiting, How long before I'm just a memory" - from TBS song name 'swing'.

4) I'm craaaazzy, yes I am. I'm open minded type of person, so I don't mind pffttt hee.

Awwhhh it's getting late. I miss someone... why does she has to do this and didn't reply my text...

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power cable - check
mouse - check
cooling fan - check
laptop - check
internet source - check
mobile phone - check
eye and brain - .............

sleepy eye and ada butterfly.... ngantuk haha nda jadi buat blog. suk ja
p.s, ku mrindui mu fuh~

something missing that used to build inside

thought its just gonna be a normal day aih... well an awesome day i expected but then it turn out to be dull and made my day fade in colour =s didn't expect she already work in the same company as I'm in... SHE my ex-'angel' zandrabella huhuuoooaaa happy to see her and that's the truth, sad i'm no longer attach string with her, start to miss her badly hour after hour, recalled back what we'd done and most of it are all happy moments and we never quarrel, not once... those feelings ya know, i miss it so much, being cuddle appreciated and warm love day after day... i miss it all, i miss her most =( I lied whenever I say "biarkan tiabah" "apa lagi ne, nada pa2 g kami" "idupnya idupku, duli apa ku" "cehh ntah" when sometime I still hope to see and talk to her someday again, yeah someday... word used to calm myself... "someday ja ku blajar" "someday ku branti sigup" ermm

afraid: she's with someone i least expected and a dude with fuck face
worried: she's in trouble, i know she always kusut and even cry...
hate: i dont hate... it makes me feel stupid
love: love myself, but she... ermm "hapus aku" "phone call" "cute without the e"
miss: her smile, laughter, pujuk me, go to her house and lepak with her family...

she's the person who taught me not to be selfish and to play guitar, used to tell me be polite even tho beibun with my dudes. Killswitch Engage - A bid farewell. a song for her =) thank you zandrabella, I still remember the smell of your perfume =)

hey OII~

Happy advance birthday to me shyeaaah received an early birthday present from family, still there's ManUtd Original jersey in dad's suitcase and wonder if that could be mine too hmm. oh well no wonder that fossil watch was in a perfect nice package, its from dad panya. both sis bought me something unique and cali like kipas aeroplane for laptop which used to bsantai dari tunggu laptop booting hahaa.

panas ari today, even najibo in bandar said so. downloaded a new form band, raget2 lagunya catchy g. still waiting for visa card....

god is beautiful, alhamdulillah

i've survived living with amah alone hahaa shyt as hell since family aren't at home and went for holiday in KL. fetch them up at airport last night, thought i was late so i drove 140+km/hr hahaa. didnt know their arrival flight had been due to 10pm =s so... yeah had "dinner" with akmal panda at delifrance hahaa and all i could think of i just wana be outside and smoke couple cigg =) aha im quiet shy infront of other parents. you know that thought and feeling "not to make a mess and be gentleman" hahaa adui.

wohuuu, got what i wanted from KL aha happy fish shyt right now. even tho there's no D60 im still lucky tho =) thanks for the fossil watch dad and nike 5 shirts mom love both much, alhamdulillah.

"i could write thousand words to impress you, never been selected and perfected, nothing but truth and never once to lie, let's set up a party grab a girl and dance, i've put myself in different situation and thru all that along time so woohoowoowooo~"

goodbye my friends~

fuh, woke up late today for work, amah g beulah ah adaka patut tidur dapan tv and nda di switch off nya aih. drove 'maharaja' car today, made me sleepy on way home since its too comfy for me tired+sleepy+off from work = celaka driving.

goin to bandar early later on, Lue text and informed me that we got futsal match rh ubd again, even bunga2 gtau theres gona be JIS chicks hahaaa.

upload new songs last night, happy with the 3 albums downloaded =)
"baby dont you return to me~"