3 step back, 2 step forward...

read an email sent by Dos Santos and found out these are true.
GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, but is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

hmm i'm better off on my own...

away day. philipino dudes! game over! continue or end game, END!

fuuuhh had our away day at Dynasty restaurant for lunch, there were Jasni, Arnold and Hajah as well. so we OTPS present ourselves there except for Najib and Hazman for cant make it to be there. wonder what happen to Hazman, for Najib he was away off to KK. Been bullied by Jasni, aihh he said save 1/3 for that space in stomach for breathing, other wise I'm gonna suffocate for not enough breathing hahaaa. oh yeah Dos Santons bought his new phone today, hehee rugget aah. lucky him cos he also got voucher for his astounding remark and performance in ITB.

ohh and when we're off to mobile shop, there's this girl, a sales lady there, she thought we're philipines hahaaa. so yeah we're blur and funny how she thought bout us. she's friendly and the first thing i noticed bout her was her eyes, attracted to that kind of eyes with her silent cute smile as if itching to have conversation and get to know lot more. Her name uhrmm ziemah, didn't ask tho cos its there on her shirt hahahaa and shes's 19 this year and I know her birthday date as well. woot woot~ our intake panya, but she seems... naah nevermind. for no reason.. I'm starving to know her lots, her eyes *drooool* hahaa.

aihh im painted in blue, black hole inside this empty heart, pump with no melody of beats. I'm giving up. despair and sadness, what possibly went wrong to myself sigh. if only she knew, if only she understand, if only she could in the same phase as me. maybe... just maybe... I'm better off alone, there's no reason for me waiting anymore, no reason to hold myself being the victim of love tragedy, yeah as they said I'm ego or mana2 lah... she kept me hanging, for that I'm clueless what she wants... for all i know, I'm not that perfect for anybody. that's my thought of myself. 3 years until today, to fall in love is the best idea i ever had but its not! crap and bullshit for me, SMC laaaa then I'll change my mind! I'm a decent guy? pffttt, I'm sweet? craap! I'm friendly? cehh! for these... there a song inside this head and it goes "if I could write lyrics bout you how come I never had one, I'm pointless having myself around you, self denying ain't I'm made of, wish and tell for that I'm lost on my own, so much sadness what happen to my happiness?" i miss you... hope that's the last thing any lady out there heard from me... goodnight.. goodnight...

a song for the ladies... a song for her, sigh

cute is what we aim for - the curse of curves

I've got the gift of one liners
And you've got the curse of curves
And with this gift I compose words
And the question that comes forward
Are you perspiring from the irony
Or are you sweating to these lyrics
And this just in
You're a dead fit
But my wit won't allow it
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse of curves
So with the combination of my gift with one liners
And my way
My way with words
It seems I'm too hip to keep tight lipped
And you're on the gossip team
You're making something out of nothing
And jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse, the curse of: (I want someone)
From what I've heard with skin you'll win

We all have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah, that's where mine go
that's where mine go
We all have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah that's where mine go
Where the reality grows:
From what I've heard with skin you'll win
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse, the curse of: (I want someone)
From what I've heard with skin you'll win
With skin you'll win
Skin you'll win

3 days off from work

urhh boring days, thought its gona be a relax and enjoyable day for me. instead i got nothing to do after taking these 3 days off, and last night me and Hafiiz walcot got ourselves some adventure. So there we were, looking for destination and point rally, stop and go, stop and go hahaa. we went out and to our first destination, soon lee KB. then off we go to Lumut highway and to Anduki park at around 9pm. p.s i'd my allergy last night after consumed shrimp down to this belly. He drove his car and we're like the patrol officer there, hoping to see something unusual or so, but hope failed us. and down we go to vokasion school area, dark and straighway path, nothing happen there... so we keep on moving to gurkha housing where theres no other people live just around the corner. again nothing happens, at this time i felt itchy around my body but told hafiz it should be okay unless i feel drowsy. last destination, Arcaaaaaa aka billionth barrel, hahaa smoke, 'lepak', ate lays!!!~ Dos Santos was there too but didnt join us cos we're far ahead directly under Arca, so he went home, maybe he's just tired from KB. around 11pm we head back home cos wasnt feel so good at that time, felt abit drowsy and warmness all around my body, itchy too like hell.

yeaaah this saturday, away day atlast and its at centrepoint hehee.

i'm out of luck, spare me some

11.40am out from BLNG, 11.50am bought octane booster for my car since its newly service and changed 2 brand new tyres. 12.05pm bought nasi katok near Dos Santos house...

then things happen like one crazy shyt day!!! im out of luck, im out of mercy, im out of words... reverse the car after pressin the gas abit just to move it from the lawn and there it happen... shattered glass, broken bumper and one hell concrete block fell down. really pissed myself off, there goes my next few months allowance for fixing my car again aihhh. thousand apology to the house owner for my reckless and thousand middle finger at my own face. just got myself home from police station, report explain and report explain aih... ampun paaaa, nda sengaja. bek udah xdent cane ja, mun xdent rh jalan raya aih i might be dead dah. bad luck eh but i dont believe in it, yang sudah tu sudah, perkataan nyasal hanya ungkitan setan, sudah di tentukn tuhan, reda sajalah..... udah jatuh dtimpa tangga lagi aduiii

sorry mostly to Dos Santos, Hafiiz walcott and Hakeem Gustur. nasib kamu nada pa2, nasi $1 but damaged done $???? guilty as charged. thank you to OTPS 2008 for coming over and there to support, tungkal pala lau nada durang, ntah2 mental kali ku sigup2

these words came up into me lately

Tomb is the cheapest home I could get for myself.
If you're getting in my way, just don't bother to remind me not to kick your ass.
thinking bout her its just like a drama, wouldn't it best not to kill me with your ignorance?
I often misuse the word ego and agony, instead i mixed them and waaala egony!
she said im ego, they said im ego, and i said its the curse of my dad so blame him.
im made of jealousy, jealousy the cousin of greed, greed is the appetite need for me to move on.
i've got the gift of curse, with this curse i can make lyrics made from the way i live. even tho its a curse, i made it out from nothing to a gift i appreciate.
tight hug, sugar lips, nice hips, perfect body language, sweet smile and this hand tells me to touch her, touch her...

I'm a risk taker, not afraid to die, not afraid to take a challenge, not afraid to be in a war, but i do afraid to lose everyone i know and someone that cares bout me....

6 stiches, a hero or wasteful attempt. daym it

this is what i get playing soccer for granted. happen yesterday during soccer training along with other OT dudes. trying to score by heading, seems that theres space to score... unknowing a friend tried to clear the ball by heading, so it was 50/50 ball and eventually we headbutt. crazy shyt as hell i was able to turn around, moving myself away for abit to reduce the impact. asked a friend whether theres any bleed on my forehead, he said "nada pa2". so jog few steps and wondering why there's thick liquid running down to my left eye, noded down and swipe it off from blocking my vision. realised theres drippin of blood on my jersey and i stood there for a moment and come to think "eh... darah? puaka banar baju ni, time futsal sama jua". so i turned around jog back to goalie post and ask a friend who played for defence "bdarahkah..?" "bdarah tu yooo" hahaa daym, thought i would be okay after that headbut. continous blood dripping onto my france jersey, splashed my head with water and cover the wound with a beanie which i got it from my car.

later that night i asked hafiiz if he could accompany me to panaga hospital, asking him few times whether it hurt if the doctor sew on skin. unfortunately we're asked to go to KB hospital for it, so we went there instantly and it was raining cold. got my stiches for the 2nd time, 1st it was when I errrr lil johnny down there hahahaa. eyelid injected, sew and done, 6 stitches the doc said. whats worse there was 3 other people with him and keep on asking me question while the doc knit needle into my upper eyelid. and i kept on being quiet as i was taking my mind off on my hp, waiting for her to message me up. so the other 3 lastly asked me, "okay kau kah? baik kau jawab, karang kami pikir kau pengsan tau ilang ingatan". hahaa no mercy from them... aihh

i am not happy, do not distrurb while im asleep

hohoo visited blng plant today, walk walk sight see, walk walk sight see again and again. bought sampo merah aah, bida rasanya payah2 d siruk aih. cant sleep last night, kept on waking up and felt wasted with unsettled feeling... hmm if only i've got someone to share this with and accompany me thru the night till im knock out asleep hahaaa.

oh hell this and that, im better off alone, never knew its all just wasting my time. these words its useless, these lyrics are just paper oil sets on fire, these smiles being untrue and i dont give a daym if im being left decompose waiting for someone to shriek for my name. pffftt...

anxious, hype, asleep. daym caffein

urhhh im wasted today, hot hot heat hahaa and digesting lots of caffeine drinks this morning. resulting myself cant sleep after coming back home from work, really tired tho. tomorrow we're gonna see sight BLNG plant again, just hope its not gona rain like the other day. caught cold and almost fell ill sigh...

hmm she said her hand was too lazy to reply everyones text, including mine... hahaa and she thought im angry bout that til she told me she's gona offline scared of me being pissed off. lalalaa~ was about to get mad abit but luckily im tired and sleepy. lucky lucky girl, im still waitin for her right now like an empty letter waitin for something to be written on it.

Glory glory Manchester United!

Barclays Premier League
Old Trafford, Sat 15 November

MANCHESTER UNITED 5
Ronaldo 3, 89, Carrick 45, Berbatov 49, Welbeck 84

STOKE CITY 0

fans in Brunei said their lost against Arsenal was just a coincidence as Arsenal lose their match recently but the red devils won their match.

restless corpse

urhh tired ehhh, panas g ermm... and tommorow start end of semestar exam uhh... gona drive back to bandar later, just me hakeem, hafiiz, jay and ajis staying in nazira. *kusut* uhrmm feel abit awkward these days, into liking this girl but uhrmm situation brings me down and left me clueless. to be or not to be~ might as well take a deep sleep and think bout her after that, ukan satu, pi 3 gadis~ hahaa daymm

One United, Go!

Barclays Premier League
Old Trafford, Sat 1 November

UNITED 4
(Ronaldo 3, 44; Carrick 29, Vidic 57)

HULL CITY 3
(Cousin 23, Mendy 69, Geovanni (pen) 82)

what a beautiful game that was, been shouting as if im the one playing on old trafford field haha.

other matches result:

Tottenham H.

2 - 1

Liverpool

Stoke C.

2 - 1

Arsenal

Chelsea

5 - 0

Sunderland

hahahaa chelsea destroyed sunderland, and liverpool..? kam apa nya mu..? hoho~

nak,tidoooor,sampai,mampus

urhhh... hot day+ 2 maths session i'd this morning, really put me into a serious bad mood and knock me off being sleepy in class. shyeaah karang balik KB wuuu!~ or maybe just gona sleep over at erwan's place tonight.