Burn out the sun, oh wait... Let's burn it anyway

Finally! I got all the All Time Low albums, high five for me hehee. They're great and love their lyrics, not all tho cos few songs I don't really understand whats it's all about. Even randomly downloaded few songs I never heard before. I like this song 'come on come on' by Morgan Laurence.

"Dude, what happen to your hair?"
"Hahaa kan panjang hair mu lagi ka yo? Panjang kan eh cam dulu, raget"
"Oh shit Zee, really? I like you better with curly hair, but last time also hensem long hair"

Why few of my friends told me these? Yeah I got my hair rebonding again, just need to make it look smart and easy to control that's all PLUS I love my old hair do. Med-long and look like the guy from Boys like Girls. Pfftt yeah~ Oh yeah, before that I did take a picture of me with afro hair HAHAHAA.

I wanna run and hide somewhere til I feel safe to show myself outside again. I really miss her and every moment we had, yeah we're good friend and I like her being with me going out until we barely notice its after midnight. Now that she's busy.. I'm not sure what she up to but please why she just can't reply all my messages =(

Yeah I'm sad, helpless and hopeless SIGH' I got nothing to prove and she'll leave Brunei just in the next few days. Confession: I thought I'm unable to cry no more, after listening to one of her song she asked me to download and listen... Daym I cried like a little girl and looked like a lil bitch, was in miserable moment all night. I miss her so badly =( Blue and yellow, get it? yeah im sad.

Recent news I heard from a friend, I'M NOT A SWEET STALKER ALRIGHT! I DIDN'T EVEN TREAT ALL GIRL THE SAME AS IF THEY'RE MY GIRLFRIEND. Please be open minded, I'm friendly baa, don't be an asshole mouth saying I'm a sweet talker and I'm hitting on every girl I met. I don't like it and never think of becoming one. Shisshh! All those words I told to the girls I like came from this big sincere heart, I'm innocent.

Empty smile.

Hey I'm back on blogging wuhuuu for that, i think... not sure how long I can find free time for myself and talk bout this screwed life *pout*. Yeah yeah some people thinks that "Uuuww he's good, living his life just like any cool kids did" and "Nazeee, daym you're lucky maaan. Fuun!" and "Gaaah WTF Nazeee, you're gay and idiot. You should live up your life and be out there".

Well these are just few of those simple reaction I got from gay friends (not homo haha!), best friend and strangers (don't ask me, friends of a friend?). Well all I can say to myself hmm lets see...
what's with this stupid insect... eh wait LOL almost forgot pfftt =D

What you got to know bout me (if you bother and read this anyway) since the day I realised that I'm living a fucked up life driven by this rusty mind and a broken heart.

1) I was once a broken man, not knowing much bout depression and frustration (blue and yellow, get it?). I learned love does exist thru my own worst experience. How I react? End up crying like a little girl lost her doll. Yep sigh' for almost 3 months I kept on crying. what..? Naze cried? That's stupppiiiid. Well YEAH I CRIED! WTH should I know, was young and knew nothing at all bout love and girl friend that much. The only idea I'd was blaming myself to death HAHAHA CHEESE RICE!~ So yeah, I learned and study more bout that special feeling, explore and asking myself and even ask friends about it (sounds crazy). To be love is the best feeling I ever had, to be missed and care are the butterfly effect that lift you up into the sun and feel warm inside. To be left alone is the worse dream I ever had, it's like grrrr urhh grrr let me crush everything that's in my way grrrr, yeah like that. I hate that, seriously. Why? When I gave and shared part of me with someone I love, why did she has to leave and sliced open this innocent heart. I can be trusted, a loving person, care for her as if she's the world and sweet honeycomb to me and *mute*. It'll take whole day to explain.

2) Bad history? Check that please. I don't wanna tell bout this one, I mean... trying to forget bout everything I did. It's bad, trust me. How bad? REAAAAAL BAD! Boner.

3) I like to listen great music. How to elaborate this... music+lyrics = me! Oh example? "How long can you expect me waiting, How long before I'm just a memory" - from TBS song name 'swing'.

4) I'm craaaazzy, yes I am. I'm open minded type of person, so I don't mind pffttt hee.

Awwhhh it's getting late. I miss someone... why does she has to do this and didn't reply my text...

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requirement:
power cable - check
mouse - check
cooling fan - check
laptop - check
internet source - check
mobile phone - check
eye and brain - .............

sleepy eye and ada butterfly.... ngantuk haha nda jadi buat blog. suk ja
p.s, ku mrindui mu fuh~

something missing that used to build inside

thought its just gonna be a normal day aih... well an awesome day i expected but then it turn out to be dull and made my day fade in colour =s didn't expect she already work in the same company as I'm in... SHE my ex-'angel' zandrabella huhuuoooaaa happy to see her and that's the truth, sad i'm no longer attach string with her, start to miss her badly hour after hour, recalled back what we'd done and most of it are all happy moments and we never quarrel, not once... those feelings ya know, i miss it so much, being cuddle appreciated and warm love day after day... i miss it all, i miss her most =( I lied whenever I say "biarkan tiabah" "apa lagi ne, nada pa2 g kami" "idupnya idupku, duli apa ku" "cehh ntah" when sometime I still hope to see and talk to her someday again, yeah someday... word used to calm myself... "someday ja ku blajar" "someday ku branti sigup" ermm

afraid: she's with someone i least expected and a dude with fuck face
worried: she's in trouble, i know she always kusut and even cry...
hate: i dont hate... it makes me feel stupid
love: love myself, but she... ermm "hapus aku" "phone call" "cute without the e"
miss: her smile, laughter, pujuk me, go to her house and lepak with her family...

she's the person who taught me not to be selfish and to play guitar, used to tell me be polite even tho beibun with my dudes. Killswitch Engage - A bid farewell. a song for her =) thank you zandrabella, I still remember the smell of your perfume =)

hey OII~

Happy advance birthday to me shyeaaah received an early birthday present from family, still there's ManUtd Original jersey in dad's suitcase and wonder if that could be mine too hmm. oh well no wonder that fossil watch was in a perfect nice package, its from dad panya. both sis bought me something unique and cali like kipas aeroplane for laptop which used to bsantai dari tunggu laptop booting hahaa.

panas ari today, even najibo in bandar said so. downloaded a new form band, raget2 lagunya catchy g. still waiting for visa card....

god is beautiful, alhamdulillah

i've survived living with amah alone hahaa shyt as hell since family aren't at home and went for holiday in KL. fetch them up at airport last night, thought i was late so i drove 140+km/hr hahaa. didnt know their arrival flight had been due to 10pm =s so... yeah had "dinner" with akmal panda at delifrance hahaa and all i could think of i just wana be outside and smoke couple cigg =) aha im quiet shy infront of other parents. you know that thought and feeling "not to make a mess and be gentleman" hahaa adui.

wohuuu, got what i wanted from KL aha happy fish shyt right now. even tho there's no D60 im still lucky tho =) thanks for the fossil watch dad and nike 5 shirts mom love both much, alhamdulillah.

"i could write thousand words to impress you, never been selected and perfected, nothing but truth and never once to lie, let's set up a party grab a girl and dance, i've put myself in different situation and thru all that along time so woohoowoowooo~"

goodbye my friends~

fuh, woke up late today for work, amah g beulah ah adaka patut tidur dapan tv and nda di switch off nya aih. drove 'maharaja' car today, made me sleepy on way home since its too comfy for me tired+sleepy+off from work = celaka driving.

goin to bandar early later on, Lue text and informed me that we got futsal match rh ubd again, even bunga2 gtau theres gona be JIS chicks hahaaa.

upload new songs last night, happy with the 3 albums downloaded =)
"baby dont you return to me~"

become a legend, revolucao' all the way

wuut wuuut!~ passed my resit examination last week hehee lucky bastard yes i am aha. have to retake two exam again which i hate most, chem and thermo, aih fucking fish banar haa~ alhamdulillah made it thru. well now i'm likely to be in process group dah, among with ajes raul and rady ronaldo hehee under sii wong fei hung gtu =)

arnold wazegager and jasni muncung came by to our apartment few days ago to give us briefing and meeting about our performances and challenges that are about to come in the future. and as usual in the end kami kana lanja hee pizza hut 8 pan large size woot wuuhuu~

had a tough day today, had a match with lue's family team against ex st-james student team. ehee won the match 3-1, i'm the goalkeeper as usual and bolos skali cos... ada ka patut bula tlapas and then da urg sambut blast dr blakang. but anyway was in good shape, one on one and risk taker hahaaa aku save penalty duuuuude!~ aiyay from gunners took the shot, i'm the last man who stand on my ground =)

bye bye family ku, selamat jalan to kuala lumpur hohooo kirim D60, jam fossil ma baju nike 5 hahahahaa aku suka aku suka =x

here comes the dull sun...

slept at around 3am, woke up at 5.15am and off we went to orchid hotel. rehearsal rh stadium hahaa it was fun, lots of people and wawawiwaa haha, p gila panas nya rasa jadi bubuk kana jamur nda batah fuking fish =s been given a day off from work tomorow hehee relax.

oh yeah... for somehow with no reason i miss someone, craving to call her hp but then it's better not to. who am i kidding hahaa just a normal man doing my own thing, live my life to its best. only in here, i admit that i fell in love with diffrent ladies at different period of time but heh' never bother to move further and into a relationship... not even one. yeah they are fine, awesome, great, really into their personality and lifestyle. nothing wrong with them, just me and my dumbass thoughts.
yada yadaaa haha so what if other thinks that im ego and being 'jual mahal' hahaa~ maybe someday... yeah just maybe someday i'll meet this one lady i like and love most, be with her and never forget to tell her that she's beautiful in anyway anyhow... but for now hahaa i love my tucson wuuuh!!! in the future i might buy toyota celica and modify its exterior and interior as well as its performances or s2000 instead =) amin

time line of mine

for the past few days i've been sitting exam and its quite giving me headache and trouble with my sleep. barely could rest, and in mind i kept on telling myself "fuck, it's for future, fuck!" hahaa. yeah i know within im still a kid with young heart but still im hardcore bebeehh~ last exam is on monday sigh' hope its easy since i've been study for hours now.

i learned that no matter what or in situation i'm in, there always be someone to guide, support or accompany me. for instance, we have been study for hours from 6pm till around 2am. yeah study for hours, i know in mind its boring but then when i have friends like them which i treat them like brothers hey its fun and makes life more easy, rather than study all by myself with no help at all. really appreaciate each of them, every person got their own profile or story, but in the end when we do the same job together we are one. even tho im not Liverpool FC fans, its true what their motto says "never walk alone" hahaa anyway fuck torres!~ ampun paaaak

Gemini the twin.

got this from a friend thru email.

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a be au tiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

points out its all true bout me.... yeaah! 2 tumbs up bebeeh

mandi hujan

haa~ lama nda write blog ah, the other day das trying to rescue few friends cos their car can't make it to apartment since there was flood nearby. so i drove tucson to fetch them up, hahaaa like shit my car looks like submarine instead where in the end manage to park beside their cars and walk back to apartment hahahaa.

fuh felt so great today, played futsal for Suria FT as their keeper in mumong sport complex. won whole round match with just 2 'bolos'. beveq so called sponsor me his peter cech keeper glove~
anyway happy chinese new year gwai loo hahaa

noone want to sing bout your tragedy~

acquired the new Fall Out Boy and The Academy Is albums this weeks, love em' both fuuuh~ love the lyrics and musics! "say I DONT CARE!" ahaaa~

tired tired tired~ unable to play football lately, still having that "scared to dribble" trauma aih sheyt... never mind that, maybe I should ask my uncle how to handle this soon. oh oh oh i miss that girl whom i gave roses and me-to-you teddy for her birthday =) miss you dear.

" if i'm the person in your dream, when you wake up please rest assure, i'm gonna appear in front of you any time now =) "

" I wanna scream 'I love you' from the top of my lungs
But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me " - FOB