everyones leaving, not everyone sweating

wooooot!~ football match against Amir's team, salute them for it was the first time played with them. Been waiting for that match all this while. scoreboard 2-2. uhrmm but i'm not that satisfied tho because of ermm... oh well maybe i'm just the only one feeling that way.

box of heart, added hundreds of doubts and solution, shake and stirred~ i miss you =)

lullaby

its 2.52am now, cant sleep again aih... i miss nehh uhrmm sigh' ='s

i can be your poetry if you let me in,
singing infinite lullaby made just for you,
just to ensure you're having the sweetest dream each night,
and if you let me promise to take care of you everyday...
i wouldnt say no cos thats what this heart beats want.

and you deserve nothing but the best,
even though i cant be perfect...
i would do anything to get nearer being perfect =)

-to nehh' jubur kiuut-

i'd this dream...

sheyt eh, can't get my sleep again lately. dreamt of this previously...

i was in this mall in uk, cos i still remember that place. somehow im in the car with my close neighbour which i've known her since kindergarden, and theres other guys which i dont really recognise them, assume that they're her friends... so out we go to that mall, were shopping i guess but somehow busy searching for a sweater for my neighbour. ermm... and when i ask her if she like it or not ermm she didnt bother to take a look. chose another clothes for her, i guess its a hoody. showed it to her and again she dont care at all. at the same time i saw cousins and friends of mine just pass by infront of me, as if im not there at all...

woke up in panting state, hmm and these words came right straight into this head... am i remembered? am i living the right way? do they still know me..?

sorry for broken english, got this headache since yesterday...

lamb chop, lame shop, paperplane, papercut

"I've been thinking bout you lately,
something bothers me, sometime I'm hating you for this,
so all this while I'm self control from breaking the boundary i made,
i miss you when it rains, staying quiet safe from all memories.

now you're somewhere far,
I've got no reason why i should stay up late and say goodnight in the morning,
yet i miss you, and kept on calling your name unconsciously,
i know you meant it that night, cos i heard your cry before saying goodbye...
and those dried tears on your cheeks proves me...

i'm killed inside seeing you left,
and your last text makes me wonder when you gonna come back...
i miss you, but i've set my boundary to forget everything... "

papercut from crafting paperplane, feeling just fine yet still feels quiet...

semoga dan ku doakan nini ku agar sembuh secepat mungkin

diminta tuan2 dan ladies sekalian menadah tangan dan doakan nini ku cepat sembuh, kna tahan d xptal lately, trima kasih dudes.

metallica - so what!
"Well, Ive been to hastings and Ive been to brighton
Ive been to eastbourne too
So what, so what
And Ive been here, Ive been there
Ive been every fucking where
So what, so what
So what, so what, you boring little cunt

Well, who cares, who cares what you do
Yeah, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you

Well, Ive fucked the queen, Ive fucked bach
Ive even sucked an old mans cock
So what, so what
And Ive fucked a sheep, Ive fucked a goat
I rammed my cock right down its throat
So what, so what
So what, so what, you boring little fuck

Well, who cares, who cares what you do
And, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you

And Ive drunk that, Ive drunk this
Ive spewed up on a pint of piss
So what, so what
Ive had scank, Ive had speed
Ive jacked up until I bleed
So what, so what
So what, so what, you boring little cunt

Well, who cares, who cares what you do
Yeah, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you, you

A-hahaha!

Yeah!

Ive had crabs, Ive had lice
Ive had the clap and that aint nice
So what, so what
Ive fucked this, Ive fucked that
Ive even fucked a school girls twat
So what, so what
So what, so what, you boring little fuck

Well, who cares, who cares what you do
And, who cares, who cares about you, you, you, you, you, you

So fucking what!
Yeah"

just stay here and remember all the sins we'd done

i'm just spending my time with music lately, listen and read their lyrics, and then sing-a-long with it. having trouble with my morale, sigh wish i could live 1000 years more... this to fix all my mistakes, my sins, my misfortunate self and all those not to care stuffs. Ate Mc'D prosperity burger lately and i say its yuukkk, all i could taste was just onions and black pepper eishh apa neee, rather eat big mac uhh.

"do you still remember?
the time we found one another,
and again mistakenly thought you're my friend?
do you still remember?
we had fun, teasin each other and laugh about it

are we happy back then?
i remember all those songs we listen to each night,
and the time i gave you a rose and a lyric,
i really meant it that night and you give me those sign and said yes.

it's just a dream, never bother to care
living with imperfect lie,
now i want my freedom, not to bother time and time again
am i happy now? am i..."

hujan oh hujan, hati ke hati tapi matanya ke hati?

i don't care if love is all about me! hahaa nice song from FOB. It's been rainin heavily here, calm and breezy yet love it. I got these lines running around inside this head for a while, it goes "i don't wana live in a world i never knew, broken vision unsettled mission and i'm somewhere between, the person i am today is just what i want to be till the best of me run out of time and collapse 6 feet under."

hair getting long sigh, miss siti asked me to cut it short sigh', daym i love my hair and have been keepin it for 9 months now. apa nee miss, nda jua apa wah, pandai lakat ku blajar hahahaa~ so what im bout to do is ermm at the end of this week im gona drop by phoenix salon to trim it abit, yeah JUST ABIT~ hahaa. me and dos santos mandi ujan d mall today hahahaaa kan triak2 time running ke krita rasanya aihh

tucson back on track with new bontot

ah ah aahh~ krita gue udah fixed cantek amaaat, daym really miss my car. kiss the steering wheel few times just now and feel unfamiliar when driving it, since i drove echo after that incident happen. woke up early this morning since class been cancel, and off to berakas for futsal match against Najibooo's team. wasn't that fit and still felt sleepy, i just let the other team scored, oh yeah im the keeper ofcourse. the sleepy keeper hahahaa.

ku ingin tenung wajah gembira mu, agar deria kesenangan hati dapat ku rasakn lagi~ selamat malam, aku lelah hari ini, goodnight goodnight.

p.s: E O A A, E O A A, E E A O!~ daym im addicted to this music, Dos santos ja tau ne hahaa. this music kicking it~

it's all clear now

puan2 dan tuan2, and anak2 ladies biskita... hahaa saya, Nazerul, ingin mengumumkn haty ini tidak lagi resah malah pun dari patah. bak kata urang, dmana ada kemahuan dsitu ada jalan dan juga tuhan slalu bersama kita, ingat lah tuhan kerna dia sayang kat kita. walaupun dtimpa kesusahan, kita hanya di uji, yang kuat iman nya lagi baguih.

thanks to Dos Santos for lending his PD, i'm good to go with loud bass music, and it sounds great with my gaming headphone a4tech. feeling superb with no worry attached. fuhh baru balik dari bandar dudes, spatutnya nada class ri ni p since sii tutor chem tu mau da class so pa bulih buat.
buring eeh these few days dbandar, ada plg siuknya... cusen tersayang cam nda btagur g.. aih... lau ku dpt cuci pala sendiri mau ku ni, pala ani g karas payah2 kn pikir hal sendiri. lam bab ane ku bsalah brabis laah, buleh secara rela kna dauk g stampik pai bjahit rh kirai sbalah aih... ntah cna kn minta ampun, greed rules every man desire aihh...

table have turn and i learn that i'm trying to find myself an exit from all this confusion and temptation. if only i could fly, trying hard to overcome my fear and lack in confidence, but trying wasn't enough and i fell drastically. nasib haty ni maseh ingat kn tuhan, ku lupa tuhan sayang smua urang, sampai2 tmimpi2 buruk ma bala n then bangun da rasa kn smayang. alhamdullilah ku sayang diri ku dari ku sayangkn urg lain.

wish i could stop by and just say hi instead havin those long conversations that lead us somewhere and in the end both say goodbye. tapi nda apa lah, dunia tetap bputar walaupun ku harapkn masa dbrantikn walaupun tuk skajap hanya tuk usai balik mistake2 ku. im a trouble maker yes i agree, p nda smua ku dpt fix every mistakes yg ku done before. to parents ku, sorry brabis ma pa, isuk lusa lau ku bjaya d hari yg kelak da ku sponsor kamu blayar. krusi urut? ps3? krita sport? sabut tia saja, insyallah lau umur ku nda branti naik ku baah kn tia, jan ja suruh ku gunting rambut udaaaah hahaa.

harder than you know...

sometimes I wonder whether sweet love even exist, I'm still wandering and search for something I'm not sure of. Driving me crazy..? naah it's not that simple, like a song, only the writer know it well what the song really means. no matter how good I tell someone, it's not good enough and not that simple as what they think. so here a song lyric from escape the fate...

You said this could only get better
There's no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I gotta wait (I gotta wait)
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So if I'm the fire, you've become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go (I guess I'll have to go)
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you cause I love you baby
And I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy

Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl You're driving me so crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy