Empty smile.

Hey I'm back on blogging wuhuuu for that, i think... not sure how long I can find free time for myself and talk bout this screwed life *pout*. Yeah yeah some people thinks that "Uuuww he's good, living his life just like any cool kids did" and "Nazeee, daym you're lucky maaan. Fuun!" and "Gaaah WTF Nazeee, you're gay and idiot. You should live up your life and be out there".

Well these are just few of those simple reaction I got from gay friends (not homo haha!), best friend and strangers (don't ask me, friends of a friend?). Well all I can say to myself hmm lets see...
what's with this stupid insect... eh wait LOL almost forgot pfftt =D

What you got to know bout me (if you bother and read this anyway) since the day I realised that I'm living a fucked up life driven by this rusty mind and a broken heart.

1) I was once a broken man, not knowing much bout depression and frustration (blue and yellow, get it?). I learned love does exist thru my own worst experience. How I react? End up crying like a little girl lost her doll. Yep sigh' for almost 3 months I kept on crying. what..? Naze cried? That's stupppiiiid. Well YEAH I CRIED! WTH should I know, was young and knew nothing at all bout love and girl friend that much. The only idea I'd was blaming myself to death HAHAHA CHEESE RICE!~ So yeah, I learned and study more bout that special feeling, explore and asking myself and even ask friends about it (sounds crazy). To be love is the best feeling I ever had, to be missed and care are the butterfly effect that lift you up into the sun and feel warm inside. To be left alone is the worse dream I ever had, it's like grrrr urhh grrr let me crush everything that's in my way grrrr, yeah like that. I hate that, seriously. Why? When I gave and shared part of me with someone I love, why did she has to leave and sliced open this innocent heart. I can be trusted, a loving person, care for her as if she's the world and sweet honeycomb to me and *mute*. It'll take whole day to explain.

2) Bad history? Check that please. I don't wanna tell bout this one, I mean... trying to forget bout everything I did. It's bad, trust me. How bad? REAAAAAL BAD! Boner.

3) I like to listen great music. How to elaborate this... music+lyrics = me! Oh example? "How long can you expect me waiting, How long before I'm just a memory" - from TBS song name 'swing'.

4) I'm craaaazzy, yes I am. I'm open minded type of person, so I don't mind pffttt hee.

Awwhhh it's getting late. I miss someone... why does she has to do this and didn't reply my text...